life and death..

yea I had another weird dream. it was friday afternoon so we where in the store looking for food when the store was robbed! we all had to stand in line at the front of the store. 2 men with big guns just walked up and down till 1 of them looked at me and said I should go to the back (where they unload trucks). so I went there and waited. he came to the same place and was surprised I didnt ran away. 'im to big to hide in a corner an running away just didn't seem smart' I replayed in a calm voice. he was wearing a balaclava but I could tell he was smiling 'you haven't changed' he said. and I was sure I knew him! but do I really want to know who it is? should be someone I went to school with, but who? no maybe it's better not to know and just stay on there good side. he pointed to a line fof 25-30 people.. 'who would you let go first?' I looked arround 'can you give my mum a chair? if she's on the ground there's no change in hell she'll ever stand up again.' he didn't even remind me they ran the show but instructed the other guy to bring my mum a chair. I was still scanning the people on the floor, looked beside me.. a gun an a guy in a mask.. a guy that knows me.. it slowly became clear to me I was helping to rob this store in a weird way. but I didn't care.. I saw a mum with 3 kids and an old lady.. I was feeling sorry for them. 'you want your mum out of here first?'... 'huh? oh her.. she needs her med's she wont survive without them.' he looked straight at me 'so your mum will go first' I looked at 3 small kid's and a mum who was scared to death her children would be hurt. 'let them go' I said pointing at the kids 'there to little for a robbery, then the old lady before she gets a heart attack.' before I knew it he grabbed me by my arm and pushed me infront of him. I felt the gun at the back of my head, but somehow I knew he woulnt shoot, hell he was taking my advice! the woman with her 3 kids where the first ones to run into the save arms of the police all arround the building. I was looking at mum.. if I would keep her here she wont survive and all of my problems would be over! I could let her go tho.. I honestly didnt know what to do. 'I'm thirsty!' 2 masks looked up, looked at eachother and got some bottles of water, I was drinking my Cola Zero and mum her Pepsi Max. after a while 1 of the masks stood infront of me 'It's that time again..' I looked at mum 'it's not her time yet.' he took 1 step to his right and stood infront of my mum, grabbed her arm and before letting her go. mum was calm, just as calm as I have been.. feeling something inbetween knowing, not knowing and maybe not even caring.

I had a dream

one so weird I though it was weird during the dream.

my gran doesn't read, so she would never ever read a book.

my mum doesn't like super natural stuff

(neighther do I but I do read Steph King.. see the difference?)

this is just a reminder, here's the dream...

mum was telling gran about a King book story I told her. she was telling gran that there was a tenticle that went into a guy's cheek and went out of his ear (for the movie fan's: Men in black II scene or the beetle that crawled in/out the cheek of the mummy in the movie The Mummy) and gran liked what she heard and wanted to read that King book! I was worried cause there would be enough stuff in there for them to trow the book in an open fire. (which didnt add up that I told mum the tenticle part) gran read the book, well the first part and I go more worried she would have nightmares for the rest of her life. then I desited in my dream this dream was just to weird and just stopped dreaming. didnt even knew I could stop a dream in my dream!

I dreamed a dream

I was walking in england, with my bag an I was making pic's with my phone. the idea was that I had to collect a suitcase somewhere that I lost. but the whole thing was a mistake so I was allone in the UK for a day strangly enough I had a one way flying ticket. anyway I was taking pic's.. walking behind The Tower but it wasn't right. I mean the street I was on doesnt exist there in real life.

I was walking on that street and all of a sudden I saw ppl I knew and found a bush thing in a flowerpot, those big outside ones and in it lived little swans. 2 by 2 in a heart shape they where sitting there and I took a pic of them.

I kept walking but it got so dark so I desited to sleep in a B&B for a night. I found in a bit of a back alley an open door... it looked like no one has been there for ages. I walked in there and there was a small counter on the right and a staircase right in front of me, the whole building was painted orange on the inside. I didnt saw anyone so I called 'hello? anyone?' when I opened the first door. there I saw a bed with someone sleeping in it... I closed the door and went back down. 2 women sat there! a very skinny but friendly woman behind the counter and a bigger one beside her. there where both in old fasioned dresses. the one behind the counter a black and white one, the other dress was brown/greyish.

'goeie avond' (good evening) the first women said... they where.. Dutch? I answered them in English and asked for a bed for the night. it turned out to be a Dutch B&B type thing for students, normally they go out all night long and stay there to sober up but tht night there where only 4 guests. I could get a bed! both women stood up and went though a door next to the staircase (also orange so hard to see). I grabbed my wallet and... no wallet!! so I kept looking till I found a small wallet with about 35 pound and some change in it O_O how can I get back to Holland with tht? living in the UK or being homeless in the UK is a very big difference!

I leaned over th counter to figure out what I might do and see the till open! I take my glove, grab some cash from it and ran away.

I ran out of that street, back to the other one and ended up at the tourist busstop at the Tower (see thats how I knew where I was) I was about to walk in there when I saw a taxi so I ran half in front of it and rushed to the nearest airport. there I bought a ticket, something to eat and used the exuse 'there was a error and now my suitcase is still in Holland, I have to pick it up myself! well after that im going home!'

last thing I dreamed was that I was on the airport changing my pounds for euro's... enough for a trainticket.

I had a dream… again…

I was riding home and I saw that a guy was waiting for a car.. people where moving but then the second guy ran out of the building with a Chihuahua.. Kelso! I walked to them and said it was my Chihuahua. He didn’t expected that and dropped the dog who ran to me. I jumped with Kelso on my bike and rode as fast as I could to the vet. Telling them to check his chip (he’s chipped) the assistant didn’t understand but I knew if they would grab him they would take him away. She called the police but before she got to chip him the 2 men ran in screaming I was crazy and that they shouldn’t listen to me. The assistant was about to say something but then a policeman walked in and said he was talking the dog to find out who’s dog it is. The guys said it was okay but Kelso was looking so sad I said I would go with him. And there we were in a corner of a kind of lost-and-found- room with lot’s of boxes. Me on the floor with Kelso on my lap. After a while (no idea how long it’s a dream) the policeman told me to go home and that the dog is going home too. So I raced home and when the policeman brought back the dog I was opening the door. Kelso was home again!

I had a dream.. a weird one

I had a weird dream. I heard a noise outside and when I opened the door to the balcony (the back balcony) 3 more Kelso's walked in! they looked just like him but others where differend. when I walked outside 3 more doggies just like Kelso where sitting there.mum tried to get our Kels out but there where to many. there where about 10/12 Kelso's but when I looked closer there where ifferences and some looked like the Gremlins (u know 1 who is crosseyed, one with a mohawk) but 3 where exactly like Kelso. but there was 1 that was pure evil, foaming at the mouth and biting the other ones. so I took him to the balkony and dropped him so he would land on another balcony. all I heard was a little girl saying: 'look daddy a puppy!' then just growling and screaming... I needed to think so I was laying on the floor on  pillow and there was 1 doggy that layed across from me watching me with big eyes, Kelso! then I remembered I got him chipped. mom had a chipreader thingy (no idea why) and it was Kelso.. the only doggy that stayed with me an didnt play with the others. then I woke up... and looked right in Kelso's eyes who was chewing his bonesnackthing on me lol.

sleepy sunday

I woke up at 8 in the morning. did some work paperwork sorting and had lunch arround 1-ish in the afternoon. then I desided to read The Mist in bed, which was a dumb idea. after 8 pages I put down th book and fell asleep. I must have been sleeping arround 2 hours today. and when I woke up I was sleepy! there must be something wrong with me.

I had a weird dream tho: there where dead fishes in my room on the floor. 3 silver ones, a green one and a purple one who was falling appart. there also was some fish guts and jellie typ stuff on the floor. oh and like 8 Disney video's, Bambi, Pinoccio, Alladin and some others. I desided to feed the fish and video's to the ducks. I collected all the fish on the plate (dish?) I burn my candles on. the fish all fell off like 3 times but when I got it all up there and the video's in a plastic bag I went went down in the elevator and then I went outside. there I remembered ducks dont eat video's so I stacked them outside against the building where I life and gave the fish to the ducks. so..what does that mean?

saturday

I did a dr Phil test that I got from Fox and got 50 points! today was weird, the plan was to go into ton with Saskia but... mum was already gone on her scootmobile (electric scooter..well u know). right before I left Kelso got free from the livingroom cause there was a draft. when I closed my mums door to stop the draft, the laundry she hang up on the balcony blew away almost. so I had to re-hang it on th rack inside. when I finally could leave Kelso was crying...such a sad sound and he didnt stop so I called Saskia an called it off. lol my lil puppy needed me XP well he's 1... so my lil todler needed me! in the time mum was gone I leaned my closet! it looked so terrible *blush* in the afternoon gran came, that was fun. and when she left and I was reading the paper arround 4:00 I fell asleep sitting on the couch at 6:30 I woke up on the floor in front of the couch sleeping on Kelso's pillo with Kelso asleep on my back.. yea.

I dreamed weird. I was with mum staying in a hotel next to a freaky lil town. kinda like the UK series The League of Gentlemen. and there I found out ppl kept dissapearing and at 1 morning my glasses were broken O_o never knew if we made it outta there btw. so now im gonne go eat!

I had a freaky dream last night

I was in an old cinema with my old class (the class when I was 13/14 year old) somewere in Finland/norway or somewere up there. we were watching the movie the Exorcist in the oldest room they had, the rest was newly build around that movieroom-thing. well I was sitting in in the back with most off my classmates 2 off them sat in the front row. I found it creepy cause I don't like demon type movies and I had a very bad feeling. when the movie started I thought I saw things moving on the seeling. after about 10 minutes I heard laughing on the left side and begged my 2 friends next to me to go outside, well when they went outside with me I explained and they agreed we should get outta there. we went back in and the lights were starting to go on and off. when e got everyone off the class out I ran back to get the 2 in front out. when I explained and let them listen to the soft laughing left of the seeling they rushed with me outside but the door was stuck. after then pushing and us pulling on the door it broke open. outside they were looking for ppl who worked there but the whole cinema was empty. we desided to get back in and get the rest off the ppl out, when we tried to get back in the door was locked again and the door felt like it was on fire. we all rushed outside the cinema, when we were out we heard a very big bang and just started running to the nearest town. we told the teachers who called the police, a lil while later we rushed out to stay somewere else (weird enough) we ended in San Fransisco... there we heard that the ppl still in that cinema were gone... not only the door but the while room was so hot that most choked or burned alive without even 1 spark off fire. the gouverment burned the cinema down and then burned the ground it stood on.. now its a place no one is alloud to go. then things got very cloudy and I woke up